Sunday, September 7, 2008
In 2.5 weeks our little boy will turn 1! It still all seems like a blur sometimes... wasn't I just in the delivery room having him? Really it was such a long time ago! We've started planning for his birthday party, finished the invitations and mailed them out this weekend! It all makes me sad, but happy. I am so wishy-washy...it makes me want another and then I think Oh Gosh...how in the WORLD could I handle Ryder and another (not to mention still consult part-time and keep the house going)! The thoughts run through my head all of the time. I am such a planner and I always try to make everything perfect in my head and on paper. I find myself dazing off, running everything through my head...yet nothing seems to work exactly like I plan. At any rate, just thought typing it all out might make things a little more clear. Do you ever get rid of the puppy syndrome (as Matt calls it)? Do you always think..."Oh to have a tiny little baby would be so wonderful"...or do you outgrow this knowing that this is when you are done having kids. Maybe, this feeling never goes away and that is why the Duggar family is on baby #18. What is the answer, how do we know when our family is complete?? I ask Matt this and he says just to pray about it...God will tell us the answer. We prayed long and hard about Ryder and that is why he is here. Anyway, thanks for listening...I promise my next blog won't be so weird! LOL!
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